Three "old" friends.....
One of them: struggling her way out of a deep hole that she wonders how she got in.......
The second: Just graduated Nursing school; hence the celebration last night........
The third: A beautiful kind soul who has dedicated her entire life to serving others ONLY to glorify the Lord Jesus Christ.
It's so weird how we came to be.
I haven't talked to the one who graduated in sooo long, yet we picked up as if those two years since I had my son never passed. She was actually on duty in the nursery the day they did my emergency c-section and she was part of the team that brought my son into the world and then later she was the first one that brought him in to meet his Mommy in the recovery room for the first time!
I was her Matron of Honor 6 months later in her beautiful wedding. That was the first time I left my son alll day..... And I didn't see him until the following morning.....See? THAT'S LOVE!
The other sweet, sweet soul is just busy w/ life. She actually does my hair.... So I get to see her a little more often and I visit her church sometimes..
OOPS!!! I guess now you know I'm not a real blonde?
Ah well, if you browse thru my very first posts you see it anyway.
But I digress:
This post is just a little tribute to these girls in my life. We don't see each other often but they make me feel so "ME" when I'm around them ya know?
They know THE Misi, they have seen me thru the good, the bad, the great, the horrible......
It's nice to have friends you can fall back on.
And I was so convicted last night because there is no reason we can't be there for each other more.
We are just lazy, we let LIFE get in the way.
That's so sad because we give each other so much when we are around each other.
So: Moral of story????
Cherish your friends. Make time for them.... It's worth the effort,is it not?

Do you know what I absolutely, positively freaking cannot stand?
No?
Oh OK, let me enlighten you:
AHEM, HERE YE,HERE YE ALL: YOU ANONYMOUS BLOGGER'S OUT. THERE.SUCK.


So sorry, I know it's kinda harsh but seriously????Why in the world do you "blog surf" if you do not have your own friggin blog?
And why in the world do you comment on other's blog's w/out leaving your name????
Did you know you can include it at the end of your marvelous comment?? Isn't the whole point of Blogging to develop community with your internet peers?
OH!! DING DONG!!!! You didn't know that right.... Oh OK cool.
So that's why you guys do it.



It's soooo not because your a buster right???? Like you are cyber shy or hiding behind your words because you really don't have the guts to leave your name behind a comment:controversial or not?
Oh wait!!! Get this ANONYMOUS'S out there!!! You can EVEN sign a FAKE NAME!

Oh!!!! Lights are on now, aren't they. Whooooo hoooo, we are in business now aren't we ANONYMOUS'S alllllllll over Bloggity Blog Land.
Geez. Seriously,can you tell I hate anon. comments.
They make me angry and my skin crawl. Cuz I'm like "is this some freakazoid who found my blog and is stalking me or just some cowardly-yet opionated person that has no guts"?
I dunno, but what-EV dude.
It annoys me!!!!
I used to NOT allow anon's to comment b-cuz I hated it but then I got called out on it and I was like " FINE, I'll TURN IT OFF"
Viola! Next day ANON comment. Seems innocent enough but is it?
I don't think so.
I don't think your name is Chrissy, and I don't welcome anymore of anon's who may want to comment on my blog.
In fact you won't be able to after this post which is a free for all for all of you cowardly ANON'S cuz after this post my friends, Comment Moderation and NO ANON'S allowed.
And ya know why? It's my blog, that's why. End. Of. Discussion. Period.

Disclaimer: It would one thing if my ANON'S were cool, but they are so not.

I stole this Meme from a blog I stumbled upon while surfing b-cuz frankly, it's Saturday night(I'm alone):( - b-cuz I'm a Mama who is single who refuses to leave her angel more than need be already... Because I am Mother and Father to him who's only 2, he needs sooo much at this stage that only Mama can give(or so he says's) He's playing me like a fiddle or maybe a drum but WHAT EV!. He's my soul so I don't care a bit about me. He will taken from me way too soon by some not good enough for my baby boy; girl, wait! I mean sweet girl and I will no longer be his princess:(
His words everyday after I put on my outfits he looks me over and say's("Mommy your my Princess") Oh these are the days...

HOWEVER SINCE I WAS LAID OFF 3 WKS AGE I AM GOING CRAZY!!!! I don't think you get it..




I am going CCCRRRAAAZZZYYY.
Completely sucks b-cuz I ALWAYS wanted to be a SAHM or WAHM. I have found tons of sites sayin "Work from Home But this Mama cannot waste her ever dwindling money on a "maybe". No way, What the heck is this about? If someone knows a logical answer as to why I have to pay someone to work for them: please enlighten me....
It sucks b-cuz if the circumstances were different and I wasn't worried about the bills I would be so uh more,free to enjoy this time w/ boy,instead
the bills are mounting and since ex-hubs left I have depleted my savings b-c that sorry piece and waste oh oxygen has not given me a penny since last July 19, 2007.
Hmmm,
I lost track- what was this post going to focus on?
Thinking,,,Thinkin,,,,
Oh!*@$% Right.
So, the stolen Meme from Snackies World.
"IN A WORD"
IF YOU COULD USE ONLY ONE WORD....

...TO DESCRIBE YOURSELF, WHAT WOULD IT BE? LOVER
...TO DESCRIBE ME, WHAT WOULD IT BE?***hmm?
...TO DESCRIBE YOUR CURRENT EMOTIONAL STATE, WHAT WOULD IT BE?Broken, Raw,Abandoned, Oh God.. let me stop, it's only 1 word...
...TO DESCRIBE YOUR HAPPY PLACE, WHAT WOULD IT BE?Joshi
...TO DESCRIBE THE PERFECT DAY, WHAT WOULD IT BE? Fulfilling
...TO DESCRIBE LOVE, WHAT WOULD IT BE?Kevin
...TO DESCRIBE HATE, WHAT WOULD IT BE?unnecessary!!!
...TO DESCRIBE YOUR FAVORITE MEAL, WHAT WOULD IT BE?Gratefulness
...TO DESCRIBE A PERFECT AFTERNOON, WHAT WOULD IT BE?Outside
...TO DESCRIBE WHY I AM ASKING YOU THESE THINGS, WHAT WOULD IT BE? Curiosity

OK. Now everyone PLEASE, PLEASE, PRETTY PLEASE humor me!!!!! I KNOW that lot's of you read this, my site meter says so. You can post ANON. just use a different name, if it's b-cuz I moderate the comments: TELL ME. I'll stop just for you.. K?
Please play along, cut and paste this in the comments, I don't care how long they are, please participate!
And if you dooooooo, there is something, very LITTLE but still something that I will pick one of you to win, Yep, I'm picking, not biased, I already know how I'm goin to pick, not based on answer's.
So, get to it peeps. I'm counting on YOU all to make me laugh and make my day a lil more light-hearted. Anyone who goes thru Depression KNOWS it MAKES YOUR WHOLE FRIGGIN LIFE A WARZONE!!!! And i thought having a baby was hard. Nope! Depression?! Way harder.
If you stayed thru this incredibly way toooo long post: I bow my head and say Thank You in Arabic.
Wait?! Don't know that language. OOOPPPPSS!!!

Today I am going to participate in An Iowa's Mom Pay it Forward idea.


To really get a feel please visit her very first post about it here.
Basically you pick a blog that has inspired you, made ya laugh, think about life in a way you never have before, blah,blah, blahblahblah.
You guys are smart, you get the idea; or if you have any questions please direct them to An Iowa Mom.
No, kidding!!
Ask me, via e-mail or post a question in comments section but really it's self explanatory.
In Iowa Mom's own words: "Every now and I then I run across a blog, that's not on my normal blogroll, that I just connect with. You know, when you read two or three entries and truly stay interested and engrossed in what the author is saying. I then add them to my blogroll and wish that everyone knew about the little secret I just discovered."
So true right?


So...... drum roll please........ This Friday's Pay it Forward for me is........

Living Freely: by: Brandi and someties her silly hubbie Greg- who Glogs...
I will not attempt to even explain her or the content of this amazing and uplifting blog that is straight from the heart, you must go yourself and you will be so amazed. She is a self-less,God loving, wonderful Mama, and the list could go and on but go! See what I'm talking about!!!!! And here's the kicker: I have learned ALL of this by her blog. I wish we could meet in person. We live 40 mins away but thats life for ya.


Now for all you others out there, I love your blogs too. If I didn't I would not spend my time reading them. And who knows?: next Friday you may be up!!!!! And if you're not, that's ok too. This is not a competition, please know that.


Happy Pay it Forward day!!!!!!

Hear yee-Hear yee- A give away you don't want to miss!!!!!!


Heads- up people! Great give-away happening over at:Rocks In My Dryer!!!!
She is hosting an AWESOME give-away that the generous people from Wow have given her the opportunity to pass along to you.
So, get to her blog, read the rules and enter.

Man, that means I have less chance of winning by passing the word along: see how generous I am?
Even though just recently my ENTIRE CD collection was stolen from my open car??????
Lord: Let me win please!!! You know how picky I am about only letting the kids listen to Christian music.
Amen.
And a big THANK YOU to Shannon for taking the time to do this, I have heard it is very time-consuming!

Mother's Day 2008 "Joshi please smile...."
"O.K. whatever Mom take the freaking picture"
and they say I am just like him, that would be my Daddio at his
finest saying " hurry up and take the picture"!

O.K. true story, you won't believe it but I will tell you anyway..... Hey! I'm clinically depressed remember? Maybe this is a hallucination?
Nah, that's not funny....
O.K. back to my point- this morning at breakfast Joshua looks at his replica of the cruise ship I brought back for him and says,,,,,
Josh-that's your boat Mommy!
Me-yes that's the boat I went on.
Josh-I stayed with Nana and papa.
Me- yes I know.
Josh- I say MMMMOOOOMMMMMYYY come back.
Me- trying so hard not to feel guilty. First time in 2 years I left him and a 2 mths later he's still traumatized?
Josh- and you brought me a necklace with shark teeth.
Me-yes...
Josh-and a hat with the boat on it...
josh-and an airplane...... ZZZOOOOOMMMMM.
Me-Uh, huh at this point thinking Dear Lord how does he remember this stuff?
Josh-and a backpack, football, basketball....
Well you get the picture right?.
This child just turned 2 and I swear it he said allll of that legibly...
And why yes of course I'm bragging, it's my right, I'm his Mother by peanuts!

oh man-today i am so exhausted, mentally that is; i am not even bothering w/ grammar.
guys who pray i need it. im at the lowest point that i have ever ever been in my entire life.
i keep telling myself "get it together misi", "what the hell's wrong with with you"?, "you have a son that needs you".
see thats the thing i have no one- we are alone together. i had to take a leave of absence from work and my family is all at odds with each other and it seems like they have forgotten all about me in their "own" lil drama.
i have been diagnosed with "clinical depression". i just need a major life change, not pills, but i'm taking them because i'm trying to be proactive ya know? you cant help those who wont help themselves kinda thinking?
my house is a diaster, my son needs his diaper changed and he has been watching tv alllll day while i intermittently lay in bed or get something to drink and drift to the computer...
what happened to me? what happened to my life?
i dont want pity, just prayer ok girls?
i need it, my family needs it, and most important my son needs his mommy back.

Yup I'm having one of those days: those of you who know will say "oh Lord", here she goes.

And yes here I go.
First to clarify a few questions others have asked about my blog:
1. Why do you moderate comments?
Well I have a few young readers from my church and family and when you write about certain things you may get ignorant comments and I refuse to have that kind of content on my blog.
2. Why do you not allow ANON. comments?
Well refer to #1 and also because this is my dogone blog! If you don't like it, well I'm sorry move along....
Sorry if that's un-Christlike but I warned ya. One of those moods remember?
I am on a rant. I believe it may be my first ever blog rant!
Oh! How sweet!!!
I just don't get people sometimes. You can't please everyone now that's a lesson I learned at a very early age.
Also: You cannot and should not judge a book by it's cover. That's rhetorical.. I really mean people. Just in case you were wondering....
So with all that being said why do you ANON. commenter's choose to be ANON?
And why do you spew your hateful venom on people who have done nothing except disagree with you or actually you disagreed with them?
Or whatever.. But I am very curious... Why? I know there must be underlying issues with you but I personally filter out of my life all the things that cause me more stress than I already have in my life.
And so I ask you ANON. what in the world do you keep coming back for? Do you want the last word? Do you want to be understood? Do you want to hurt 'Christians'?
I think it stinks that you would pew forth hate on a person's blog that is so full of love and grace! Shame on you.
That's why I wrote this post because the comments meant for me over there needs to stop. She has done nothing to any of us but bless us with her wisdom.
Got it ANON?
And you ready for this? Wanna leave a comment? You'll have to leave a name and here's the kicker: it's gotta go thru me before anyone else sees it.
See that's the thing about blogs. They are PERSONAL! I started mine w/ no idea that people I didn't want reading my private life could find it unless I gave them my address but I decided to share my journey w/ any who wanted to hear. But not with haters....
Not with people who want to make people as miserable as they are.
You will keep reading and keep commenting I'm sure but it won't affect any of us who understand that people like you are just plain and simply: PEOPLE LIKE YOU..
I'm sorry your life is miserable and you feel the need to attack others. Seems like your the one doing the judging doesn't it now?
Have a nice life ANON.
And remember all Christians were not created equal.... This one's a fire cracker and doesn't lay down and cry about being hated on. This one understands and finds it quite amusing.....